My SO and I were just chatting and she made a comment about wanting to speak to my therapist as confirmation – and to make sure that I’m not still lying or playing out some other kind of delusion.
As far as I’m concerned, I think this is a GREAT idea. I’ve been lying to myself – and to others for 35 continuous years! NO ONE SHOULD TRUST ANYTHING COMING OUT OF MY MOUTH OR SHOWING UP ON THIS SCREEN… Not even me!
No one will know if I slip either – no one but me. So this places me in an awkward position, which, as a narc would normally make me incredibly angry. I have to continuously DEMONSTRATE my alignment with the truth.
In my current state of awareness – I’m just fine with this. The great thing is – for the first time in my life – I HAVE NOTHING TO HIDE! There are still things I’ve done in my PAST that I may take to my grave, but from the moment of my awakening I’ve been an open book to anyone who I’ve exposed my secret to. I HAVE TO BE!
After 35 years of lying – I expect it to take some time before people trust me again… A LONG LONG TIME – THROUGH REPEATED, VERIFIABLE DEMONSTRATIONS OF THIER TRUST BEING HONORED!
So – what I’m saying is… Be prepared to show proof… Better yet – give them the tools to investigate your truth on their own – so there’s no question of tainted evidence either.
Just remember that it’s part of the process, and don’t let your rage get the better of you when you’re asked for verifiable evidence. Just roll with it… and stick with the TRUTH!